Tear Down The Walls

Scream it to the crowd

Look beyond, there's so much more than this

star,
YQ
Guitarist for God
Loves Jesus
Listener
PSYCHOlogist in the making
Gonna be an O level freak soon...

buddies,
Farida
Linqi
Kathleen
Kehui
Siewhoon
Zenda
Corny
Tianyi

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Friday, September 11, 2009

I think...

I won't update till after O levels... Facebook is more reliable as compared to Blogger... more user-friendly too =D

Stay tuned to FB!

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Never updated for AGES liao wahahaha... too busy with.. stuff xD!

Anyway, I got nothing much. Life is a monotone now, gotta like gear up for O levels (darn it.) So maybe the frequent updating will only happen after my last exam on 13th of Nov, Friday!

I got a flu too... most likely its H1N1. Still...

Last Sat, during youth, Minwei led this song during worship, and it really ministered to me. =D

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Wahh oh man!!!

Got all my results back yesterday... and... its totally unexpected.

English: B4
E Math: B3
A Math: B4
Physics: A2
Chem: B3
Comb. Humans: B3
History B4

L1: EL (4)
R5: Physics (2), Chem (3), A Math (4), E Math (3), Comb. Humans (3)

L1R5 score:19!!!!! CRAP!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! Actually I was expecting better results... but still, thank you, God for giving me these results. =D... seriously need to work harder

I rather not talk about the Chinese O level oral haha! Totally crashed and burned.

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Monday, June 29, 2009

Haha

Won't be updating for the next two weeks... gotta ram the prelim 1 head-on!

Till then! =D

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Friday, June 26, 2009

Living with integrity

My QT topic for the past two weeks.

Is it really possible to live with integrity in this crazed world? In Romans 12:1-2, "Therefore I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."

Ethics is the system of acceptable beliefs or morals that control our behaviour. So, in that case, ethics would vary from person to person. Like, take the Dark Knight for example. When the Joker wanted to blow up the two boats, what would you do if you were a civillian on that boat? Or an inmate on the other?

ok.. BACKGROUND: The Joker planted bombs in two of the boats that was evacuating the city and he said that each boat had a detonator to the bomb of the other boat, and they had to choose. If one boat blows up, the Joker would let the other one go. However, if anyone tries to get off the boat or has not reached a decision in 15 minutes, both boats would be blown sky high. One boat consists of civillians, while the other was chock-full of prisoners... aiyah watch the show! haha!

So what would you do? If you are watching the show you would not really care. But if a psychopath actually does that and threats "I will blow up two shopping malls..." then what would you do? Especially if you are trapped in one of the two malls? Would you care about your own life?

Anyway, I guess our actions would determine our ethics, and through our ethics, people would be able to see what we believe in, what we stand for.

Look at Job, for example. He had everything, he was rich. But God struck Him down really hard and took everything away, even giving him boils, until he only had his wife left. Everything else was gone. If it was you, and the things you love most are taken from you, what would you do then?

Ok, let's put it in our context. Let's say, if you like this person, and you never got a chance with her/him. What would you do then? Some people would just drop it, others might start to curse and keep pestering God why. etc.

Another example. You studied very hard for a certain test, and your results got screwed up so bad that even the guy who never studied scored much better than you. Would you start to curse God and want to ask God for the bottomline of this whole thing?

Haha don't get me wrong, I'm just giving examples.

Honestly, when good things happen to you, its very easy to thank God for it. However, when bad and hurtful things come our way, will we still thank God for it? More like, we would distance from Him.

Job lost everything. His friends asked him to start cursing God. Job stood the test though. He continued to worship and praise God even though God brought this upon him.

Would we actually be able to stand up for what we believe in, both in good times and in bad times? Since our actions reveal our ethics, would people want to listen about a person's religion if bad things happen and that person start to emo/shut people off/curse/get pissed etc.?

I guess maybe it could be a matter of perspective. If you face a hard and hurtful time, don't think about it. Instead, look on the bright side. You know God will always be there to pull you out and pull you through, and you know that you are righteous in God's eyes because of what Jesus had done on the cross.

Here is what you can do if you happen to face a time of crisis:

- Pray about it, ask God to give you strength to see you through
- You can ask God why, I'm sure its ok. However do not let your mind dwell on it, it would give the devil a foothold to inplant questions in your mind.
- If you have your Bible with you, ask God for a passage, and refer to it.
- Share this with someone whom you can fully trust. Close friends will help a lot.
- Look at it from a different perspective! See this hard time as God testing you for your morals and what you believe in. See this as a trial of faith, if you can stand through it all the way.
- DON'T listen to whatever whispering you hear in your head, if it makes you feel worst or disturbed. The devil would try to piss you off even further, like for example:

You like this person, but you know/realise you have no chance with that person. And then you hear a voice "Yeah. So what are you gonna do? You know that person does not like you. You are like crap man." then obviously its from the enemy.

The main thing is that if you get a word, if you hear a voice in your head, it has to give you peace. If God is speaking to you, there would be God-filled peace even though the crisis might be right on top of you. If its from the enemy, you would be either more pissed off or more emo.

The enemy is well built in psychological warfare. But nothing is impossible for Jesus! We can do everything through Jesus who gives us strength!

Take heart! This battle may be/is a daunting one, but we know who the ultimate Victor is.

So yeah, bottomline, your morals/actions/ethics gotta stand up for what is right in God's eyes, no matter rain or shine. And I assure you, in time, people would be curious about what you believe in, how its making you into a discerning person. That, would be a harvest field of souls.

Will be praying for all you people out there! =D

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Haha!

J7BY attended yesterday's movie (before the Zone Outing)!

(just realised this on the train back home)

J to the power of 7, B and Y!

Jon, Jess, Josh, Joyce, Janahan, Joash, Joel, Bernadine, and Yong Quan (me lah!)

Shucks, Diane should have joined us then it would be J7BDY! xD

How come our church so many people with names starting with J??

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Owch.

Haha I think I need por-fessional help... my head is like totally schizo just now... Spent the whole of the late afternoon talking to myself! haha!

So much for the press-on in studying eh... Studying.

Cool word.

S t u d y i n g.

"Studying, To Us, (is) DYING"... quite fitting, eh? (if you cannot see it, put all the capital letters together)

Haha maybe I'm pessimistic now or something HAHA!

Great. I really need porfessional help. Being high - schizo - pessimistic now. 3 in 1 man! HAHA

=D/=(

Ok I need a life...

Sigh...

YEAH WATCHING TRANSFORMERS 2 TOMORROW!

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Wow!

Yesterday's CG outing was just awesome! About 9 of us went (Josh, Gan Chai, Royston, Sean, Bernadine, Rennes, Wenxin, Yi Jing and myself) and we totally pigged out on the sushi buffet at Sakae Sushi haha!

Quite expensive though, but yeah I guess all of us had fun!

(photos on Facebook! Check it out!)

Actually I'm not sure if I should share about my QT thing here... might be a little sensitive, I dunno... still trying to sift through all my thoughts...

I'll get it out ASAP though =D

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Sunday, June 21, 2009

I did a lot of reflecting last night and today...

My testimony would be posted here as soon as possible, after Ben and Josh finishes the check...

Maybe I'll post something up tomorrow, I have something that I would like to share haha =D

Stay tuned!

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Maybe I should go fishing someday...

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Jessica, I'm not sure if this can apply haha so I won't send it out yet... lol...

anyway

Emotions are given by God. However... some of us (me included) let the devil use it as his own personal "Playground of Pain"... giving us a lot of rubbish and making us confused and stuff...

(oh yah btw these two weeks, my QT material is on "Emotions")

It was the QT session for last Wednesday... was really tired and stuff after tuition, somehow confused over a lot of things over the past couple of weeks... Shared it with someone, but that someone just placed CAPS and sent this reply in the end:

"Why do you keep emoing about ___?" (I don't feel comfortable to disclose the blank... paiseh)

Although it might be concern, but it hurts lah. Not like I like to emo about it!!! as if I want to think about it! Am I that free to waste my life on this???

Anyway...

Really zonked out and stuff... had things on my mind, not sure if God would like to hear them... I suppose I let doubt take hold of me, letting it whisper "You think your problems are important to God? You think God would care if you have no confidence in your grad exam coming up? You think God will care about your mind and what you think?"

And I did the QT, and the passage was on Matthew 26:36-46

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"Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, "Sit here while I go over there and pray." He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. Then he said to them, "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me."

Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. "Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?" he asked Peter. "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."

He went away for a second time and prayed, "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done."

When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. So he left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing.

Then he returned to his disciples and said to them, "Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour is near, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us go! Here comes my betrayer!"

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In context, Jesus knew that He was going to die. And since Jesus is also fully Man (while being fully God) he also have emotions. I guess he would have felt the same thing as we would... say if we knew that if the next time we step out onto the road, we will get knocked down by a speeder and get smeared all over the road.

Did not get much out of this... and I was really tired, so I continued reading the QT passage... and what struck me was this paragraph:

"We can learn two things from Jesus' way of handling this grief. Firstly, He takes His grief to God. He knows that prayer is going to be the way to deal with these kinds of strong emotions. Secondly, Jesus surrounds Himself with His closest friends. He knew that He needed the support of those who loved Him to be nearby, praying and keeping watch for Him."

How true. When we feel hurt, backstabbed, rejected etc. the best remedy is to turn to God. God knows what you are feeling, He knows your hurt... and He is waiting for you to share it with Him. Just as Jesus needed to share his hurt with God, so do we. No man can stand alone in the psychological psyche. Sooner or later, we would collapse under the pressure of our emotions and hurt if we have no one to share it with.

(any professional psychologist that passes by here, feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.)

When we share our burdens with God, He will listen, no matter what, and He would give the appropriate advice. Sometimes through the Bible, people or even by speaking to you face to face.

So there I was, pouring out all my troubles to God... and in the course of that, the next day I found out an alternate guitar tuning to play in any songs in the key of G, but that's another matter...

Next thing is that Jesus has His closest friends with Him... I guess friends will be able to provide the comfort, the advice and the mountain of tissue papers that would come F.O.C (although some evil friends could ask you to treat them to lunch after that HAHA!)

Friends. Hard to get these days, with people trying to outdo each other, wanting to be the best there is in the various industries. "Friendship" is now built on intentions and motives... for example, you know that someone in the same class as you can be a great help in physics/chem. So when you get a seat next to him/her you feel better and you try to be friends with him/her, so that you can improve yourself too.

True friendship can be found, yes, but it's harder I guess...

So far, the only place that I actually found true friends are in church, where the people there are willing to listen and give advice/rebuking when needed. They won't pretend to listen or push you away, or say hurtful things while you are trying to share something...

Does this cause isolation among teenagers these days?... I have no idea HAHA lol...

anyway (I'll give you a lollipop if you actually read to here and have not fallen asleep yet...)

I guess the bottomline is this: Don't think for one second that God does not care about you. Do not think that you are negleted in life (even though a lot of people find you ridiculous, for example...). God is there. He is always there. Ready to listen and comfort you if you have problems.

He is seriously all powerful...

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Monday, June 8, 2009

This song like... rocks! haha learning this song currently!

oh yah about what I want to post about my QT, I might do it tomorrow... sigh time is really short

btw: This song is titled "Freedom Is Here" by Hillsong United on the album "Across The Earth : Tear Down The Walls" or "[a_CROSS//the_EARTH] : Tear Down The Walls"... Anyone wants to borrow the CD?



Freedom Is Here

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Hmm...

Really have no time to post...

I'll find some time to post something which I had an insight from QT the last couple of days...

Hopefully I have some time xP

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Darn it

Really no mood to post and stuff...

Even some of the people whom I confide into finds me ridiculous.

Fair enough.

Darn it.

footnote: the new Hillsong United CD really rocks! It has good music that you can just drown in it...

I should have gone for O2 camp.

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

So much for holiday eh...

Mug, mug, mug, mug...

sian...

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Monday, June 1, 2009

YES!!!!!!

Chinese written papers are OVER!!!!!

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Well... well... well..

Posting for the third time today...

Sometimes I would just ask myself... are emotions tools for mankind, or weapons of self-destruction?

I spent some time yesterday and this morning just thinking... About my feelings towards people, my sensitivity, reflections...

I think I understand my feelings... (let's be emo, for the heck of it)

If only you would know the feelings I have for you. Now I'm keeping it in check though... don't wanna let it go out of control like last year... when I crashed and burned when I heard the recent... development.

Ok lah. Last year I was really into her. No idea why. She attracts me a lot xP (I sound like some playboy =O...) Then when he told me about the two of them... BOOM my head went off like a nuke.

That period was crazy man. Emo-ed thru the week, tried to put up a brave front. Ended up in tears at night. Wasted my time watching sadistic shows and laughing at all the gory parts.

"Change is now" Barack Obama

Can I really change?

Can my emotions be controlled? Easy to say, but hard to do it.

God, I ask for strength. I called, and You answer me. You come to my rescue. God, I want to be where You are.

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." (Psalm 91:1-2)

The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. (Psalm 118:14)

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. (Galatians 2:20)

Thank you, Jesus for dying on the cross for us. =D

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

We are all special

There is more than 5 billion people in the world.

Each one of them different from the other. In other words, unique.

Which means

God designed each and every one of us to be who we are today. However...

Sometimes, we humans might project ourselves or a particular type of personality or character as "cool" or "normal". We might be discriminative against other types.

Cool. God, you are awesome. You have engraved us onto the palms of your hand (Isaiah 49:16)

"Whoa God, what big hands you have!"

I agree. God is good. Period.

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

CIP!!!!

Honestly... the first part sucked... After that it went quite well haha...

Main lesson learnt: Krystal is a very good strategist.

We were actually helping to get funds for the Children's Charities... makes me realise one thing.

Singaporeans are generally stingy. It's just so weird. Walking down Orchard Road and the path that we were walking on was mysteriously clear.

The bulk which the money came from was from foreign workers and working folk. The REST? Ignores us and (one of them) gives sarcastic replies

"You donate to me lah. You think we got so much money?"

Anyway...

I think it was last week or something.. the school wanted the Sec 4s to do a career test. So blah blah blah

and my test result was that my main traits was Social and Investigative (likes to work with results and self-discovery)

Interesting

First job on the list "Counsellor"
Next "Psychologist
Next "Nurse" (sigh)

The social sector is just awesome. To me, its like for fulfilment, not so much for economic gains. An average social worker has a low pay compared to other jobs (businessmen, clerks etc.) but hey, the fulfilment of helping people is there.

However, it still depends on God though...

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Weird.

Am I really?

A few people tell me that I'm weird.

Yeah, I know I get excited about small things. I talk a lot. I get enthusiastic about stuff that normal people would fall asleep in. (Right Hand rule, for example). I have a WEIRD sense of humour. I cannot socialise.

Thanks a lot. That was really nice of you. It's now "burned in the psyches." (Arnold Vosloo, playing Habib Marwan from 24, the series)

"Everythin' comes alive in my life as we lift you up"
"Free-dom is here"