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John 8:31b-32 "(Jesus said)'If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.' "

Jesus ,at this point, is talking to the Jews who believe that He is the Christ, the Saviour.

How true. "The truth will set you free".

Thanks for praying for me, guys... Really appericiate it... I believe God spoke to me thru my parents...

Yesterday was like a traumatic day for me. I shared with my parents about my infatuation with ______________ (don't bother counting... I just spammed the underscore key). And, well, they gave me great advice and stuff. But the question I did not expect was "What makes you like ______________?" (let's call her Pencap... since there is a pencap right in front of me now)

I did not expect that question, and I asked for some time to think about it. And, well, here is a summary... in that sense.

I believe the females in my class are all generally nice people... although some of them still like sticking tags on people's back (sounds familiar?). I find them quite helpful, quite polite to laugh at your jokes although they are not funny at all... and a lot of other stuff... Don't want to waste space, do we?

Anyway, Pencap, I had been unintentionally observing you during class breaks and I find that you are a very nice person, willing to help teach those in need, play some practical jokes to make people laugh and stuff.

Here are some bits of my school life that I would like to share here. Most of the time this year I keep feeling that I am being overshadowed, and that... as if I was made out of spare parts and stuff. I believe I dropped my guard during this time, and I let the devil gain a foothold on the Beach of Normandy. I let the devil tell me and convince me of a lot of rubbish. Like for example:

- "Who would like you? You had a sucky attitude last year and what, do you think God will change you?"
- "Come on! You are being overshadowed by _________! Blackmail him. Say some lies about him. Go on!"
- "Who said that you cannot look at girls? Go ahead!"
and others.

And I actually let the devil take hold of the Command Center of my life. The devil had made me feel pessimistic about things and being rude and sarcastic to _____, ________, and many others.

The devil fed me with a hell lotta lies. And I believed a lot of them.

I ask for your forgiveness if I had been sensitive against you, or been rude and sarcastic to you. I apologise for my... unacceptable behaviour. I had also taken advantage of people. I ask for your forgiveness.

Anyway, pencap, even if this is fast-forwarded 14 years, I still cannot go with you, even if you wanted to. Firstly, now I am still immature and young. Secondly, God Himself said that His children (aka Christians) cannot be yoked with unbelievers (2 Corinthians 6:14). Here it means that Christians cannot marry unbelievers. Because this will cause a lot of problems later and stuff. Might elaborate more if God speaks to me about it... if that is what God wants.

My parents told me that the girl God wants me to have will come soon, but not now. Well, I respect that. After all, God is God and He have the authority to do whatever He wants... after all He IS the absolute authority.

I feel much better now that everything is out.

But, no. I will never reveal Pencap's identity. After all, I don't want her to share the embarassment too.

Who would want a person like me? I don't look as good as... others. I am sure other people have a much more killer-ific attitude compared to me. I am sure others are more helpful and encouraging compared to me. So who would like such a average person like me?

Maybe I should go and be a contemplater.

You enjoyed this post, I guess. After all, this is something that people like to hear, so they can beat down that person with the bad points.

That's how evolution works, innit? The fitter ones laugh at the LOSERS.

But. I am contradicting myself... =D

Because I do not believe in evolution. I firmly believe evolution is a lie for humans to keep rebelling against God.

I firmly believe that God created everything in 6 normal days. I believe with all my heart that Jesus died on the cross for our sins past, present and future and that He, conquering death, rose again on the third day.

Although the devil pulls blinds over me and made me hide from God when I sin. Just like when Adam and Eve hid from God when they ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

"When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it. Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realised that they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.

Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden." Genesis 3:6-8

Note in the verse it is FRUIT and not APPLE.

If there are any mistakes in the above post, please do not hestitate to correct me. Thank you very very much. =D Stay encouraged, guys =)