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Electric guitars are quite cool... Plug it into a stompbox and ta-dah... you can experiment with many different stuff.

So, as I was saying earlier, just like any guitar sounds "SopCrunch", "AutoWah" etc. Each and every one of us is special in God's eyes. A shame though... A lot of people forget this simple but crucial truth. I, myself, also forget about it sometimes.

We, as humans, no matter how much we think, we cannot understand how God works... unless He tells us Himself...

Take for example... myself. (It is rude to talk about others behind their backs regarding this kind of matters...)

The last two years of school was not really enjoyable for me. I don't know what in the world is so funny, but people just like making fun of my name. After a while, I began to despise my own name. I was like thinking:
"Why am I given this crappy name? Why me?"

I wanted to have a very nice atmosphere of study, but... it was not very successful.

A lot of times, I asked myself (note it's "myself" and not "God"), "Why am I in this kind of situation?" etc.

At the end of Sec 1, a few were picked to be nominees for student councillors. I was one of them. And I must say that I was quite happy, as I thought during that time... once I got that badge, people will not mess with me. I also wanted to misuse power.

Thinking back, I am very ashamed now of what I was thinking at that time.

Obviously I failed to get through the interview. Upon hearing that, I blamed God. I BLAMED GOD WHEN I DID NOT EVEN ASK GOD IF THAT IS WHAT HE WANTS FOR ME.

Then came Sec 2. I thought... maybe they have come to their senses. (Note that I keep putting the blame on others instead of myself... which is not good, might I add) But... no, Sec 2 was worst, if not the same as sec 1.

Mid-way through sec 2, KS signed up for NUSHMS (National University of Singapore High School of Mathematics and Science) Admission Test. I thought it would be fun, so I signed up too... The test was fun, a lot of questions similar to the Sec 3 Physics (Paper 2) questions.

So yeah, two weeks later, the results came. I got into the Induction Camp. KS did not... Well, I called him that time, asked him if he entered the camp too... I tried to say some comforting stuff, but... thinking back... it sounded very tactless... sorry, KS.

So... I got turned away from NUSHMS too. Quite cliche... whenever you think you can do something well, it screws up.

Murphy's Law: Whatever bad thing that can happen will happen.

(sorry... very random.)

So, when others knew that I did not get in, they kept on coming. My behaviour that time... was horrible. I'm ashamed of it... Then, the "Tagboard Legacy" came... ... ... Thinking back, the Tagboard Legacy is one of the factors that made me open up to God.

Why am I sharing about my Sec 1 and 2 life?

As mentioned just now... Things may not go the way you like it, but it is God who is doing his work. I dunno... what I faced during Sec 1 and 2 may be a trial from God, it may also be a "share-from-experience" thing... as now, when going through the worksheets during CG lesson, those questions that require you to reflect... I use a lot of my Sec 1 and Sec 2 life as a sharing...

Why would I do that? I don't want to see anyone following my path of sensitivity and hate.

I had sinned so much. But it is all erased, when Jesus died on that cross and when He rose again 3 days later, sin has no more bondage over anyone who believes in Him.

I want to share this song... I was like... listening to my iTunes library on Saturday and this song came up in the random playlist...

I Believe by Planetshakers, from the album My King

Verse 1
I heard a story just the other day
About a man who gave his life away for me
Complicated yet it seems so clear
If I open up my heart
It be so near to me

Tag
I believe in you
I believe in you

Verse 2
I heard a story just the other day
About a man who gave his life away for me
Complicated yet it seems so clear
If I open up my heart
It be so near to me

Chorus
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe your word has set me free
With all that I am
I will live my life for you

Verse 3
I read a story just the other day
About how you healed the blind man
Made him see
Here I stand, I'm crying out to you
All I need is faith
To see a miracle in me

Bridge
I believe in
I believe in
I believe in you

Powerful...

I'll try to summarise my sharing... I just feel so happy to be able to have an avenue to share to someone, or even to the whole CG.

In short...

God is real. He is there. And He is waiting for us to be willing for Him to change our lives for us. My life is not changed yet, but... I'm looking forward to that change towards Christ-likeness.

God is awesome.

Period.