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I'm confused now.

What in the world is causing me to be like this?

I got rather bad mood swings, cannot concentrate in class, just getting angry over nothing and all that jazz.

My mind is rather screwery now... Cannot think properly.

How do you actually put God as your main priority? I don't know how to do it.

Something someone said to me just now while the group of us (Geraldine, Samantha, Wenxin, Weini, Shawn, James and myself) went out kind of disturbed me.

Is my current disturbance caused by my wanting for God? Is it because I want more of God, then I kena all this crap?

I cannot take this crap anymore.

God, just mow me down in rush hour traffic or something.

P.S the "grabbing someone's butt" thing in the previous post is the truth. I tell it as it is. Why should I lie and say that "Oh I am so clean from sexual urges?" Jesus said that the truth will set us free. If those thoughts just come in sometimes, I cannot lie and say that I am never hit by this kind of stuff before. Samson was also tempted. So was Solomon and David. These three men are powerful men of God, and they also get tempted by sexual urges. So how can I say that I am never tempted?

I want to share it because I want everything out in the open.

Yeah, that's about it.