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I'm really slacking these days...

I blatenly did not do my QT for the past couple of days (talk about setting examples)...The last time I did my QT was last Wednesday... the days after that just passed, with me doing other stuff and totally forgetting about QT.

I'm straying from God. Seriously.

(which makes me rethink about this CG Intern thing. I mean, not doing QT for half a week is not exactly setting a "good example" right?)

A lot of times during the course of the week, I fall back into sin (I think some of you would know what I'm talking about here)...After doing my revision, I got so bored and went back into sin's embrace...

(Not that I'm proud of it)

But I really don't think that I can stand up to it. Every time I do that I end up feeling really guilty before God and thus I did not do my QT... Just felt really ______________________________________.

Can I stop myself? Can I actually practice what I preach? (It's a metaphor... I never preached at all in my entire life.)

That stupid sin just hits me from all directions at school. I start to fear school... that's where I keep getting thrown about by my really irksome emotions.

Before school started this year, I really wanted to get out of it. I kept asking God (even thru camp) to cleanse me from my sins and make me pure and whole again.

BUT.

It's not even a month and I'm back at it. I really screwed up with God. Big time. How do people confess their sins and turn away from it immediately after praying? Is it determination?

I guess I don't have that yet... Or perhaps the human side of me loves sin so much that I accomodate it.

It's possible. And very likely.

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