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Wow... QT for the last couple of days was just awesome.

I just started on this new devotional material called "Mettle" by YFC (Youth For Christ) organisation, and the topic for this month is about Spiritual Gifts.

All this time ever since I stepped into the Youth Ministry at Sec 1, I did not really care about spiritual gifts. I did not even know about them. (Come on, I was young and foolish then). Its quite recently (since the Transformers camp) that I wanted to get serious with God.

Looking around, people have different things which they are really good at. Some can really express themselves during worship, be it leading worship or playing the drums/guitar/bass/keyboard, or worshipping along with the congregation. Others can really work in the background, plan activities, admin stuff etc.

I guess these are gifts given by God. He sees which gift fits us and gives it to us. What do we do with it? Mettle did not have the answer for that yet, but most likely its for accomplishing God's purpose for us on this planet.

I have no idea what my spiritual gift is. Seriously. I guess a lot of others knows what God gave them, but I really don't know what is the spiritual gift God has given me. I've annexed a lot of abilities and talents, because I tried them and I don't appear to perform. Maybe my gift could be one of them. I don't know yet.

Thinking back. I remember when I did my QT on New Year's Day. I was like all nervous and not ready for school, although I'll be facing the same people again (shuck...erm... I mean, YAY!!!). I don't know who I'll be sitting beside, I'm not sure if I could control my different thoughts and emotions when I'm back in school.

After doing the entire material, during the closing prayer, I just could not take it. I really wanted to know what my spiritual gift is. I just cried out to God, trying to hear God and His voice. Suddenly I got this thought "Wait until you finish this devotion book. You will find out what your spiritual gift is.". Not sure if this is really from God.

The next day. School starts again (oh dan... erm... YEAH!!!!!). At the assembly ground, I was like "Hmm... ok this year might not be too bad." Until it came to the sitting arrangement.

(Are you still with me?)

Outside the classroom, I got really frantic. I really hoped to get a good sitmate (can you think of a better word? Partner, buddy, mate sounds really weird). Well, I'm Sec 4!!! Having a sitmate that does not goof around or piss you off randomly is important. I started praying, asking God to put me beside someone who He (God) wants me to talk to the person about Jesus Christ and His work on the cross.

And... I got a seat beside Edmund. (Good thing not beside the person across the aisle... if not she'll just whack me every time I say something that she does not like... Let's not mention who.). Wow. Talk about coincidence. With man, 1:43. With God, 1:1.

Edmund apparently faced some crisis last year. Won't go into details here as it's quite sensitive. (Those who also know, hush...). I felt the need last year to talk to him, get to know him and help him out. But... I did not.

So now is a good chance to do what I set out to do last year. God give me strength, for in your Word, You said anything can be done through Christ who gives us strength. (Phil 4:13)

Wow big task ahead of me. Is this the spiritual gift you were talking about, God?

Note: I'm starting the "Labels" system... makes finding my posts easier.

Labels: mettle, QT, spiritual gifts