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Felt really bad just now after worship... Really screwed up while playing fill-ins for Worship You Alone. Iris did a good job... so proud of her... anyway I was rather mad with myself, as I had practiced quite a lot during the past week.

However, after talking to Josh briefly after class, I realised that its a lot in the mind, a lot to do with the pressure I'm pushing myself to. I wanted to do well while playing the electric guitar for service. I wanted things to be perfect, as I have this mindset that God will like it better if I can play the guitar better.

However, as Pastor Chee Meng had already said last week, God will accept us for who we are. God loves us for who we are. I guess I got so obsessed about trying to perfect all the fill-ins, solos, riffs etc. that I kind of negleted the fact that the whole worship team is also worshipping God and not looking out for Man's comments or criticism.

xP Now I feel even worst.

I wonder why I actually look forward to Saturdays now...

P.S Emotional rollercoaster would be an understatement. Seriously.

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