DISCLAIMER: I'm not being emotional or whatever... I'm 110% sane... just want to share my feelings and thoughts

I was bored just now while timekeeping Krystal and Deloras during their compre test. So this came to my mind... might as well share it...

Edmund was asking me some weird questions about 外面的美丽和里面的美丽. and being the nice guy as I am, I answered them.

BGR scale GUY PERSPECTIVE(as observed by YQ and patented by YQ)

0: No affection at all.
1: Your senses pick her up and you always turn for second glances
2: You start to look at her more often
3: You try to get close, but you think it's a one way thing, so you kept your distance too
4: Getting to know each other
5: You try to get closer than RANK 4
6: You still think it's a one way affair, but you want to show your affections to her
7: She's trying to get close to you too... Could it be?
8: Both of you enjoy each other's company
9: You know you like her and wants this to be special, and likewise
10: Full-blown relationship

Wow... looks really weird. While sitting at that library chair just now, watching the both of them suffer, I feel... maybe this BGR crap is telling me something. Is God trying to tell me something?

For the last few days, God have been teaching me a few things through QT...
- Seek God first, always.
- Never worry, because God will make a way
- When you need help, God will be there and help you out. Immediately.
- When troubles seem to overpower you, God will be there to calm the storm.

Quite true... why worry, when there is a God up there who would provide for you? He provides food for the sparrows. He will provide for you too.

That was the expected and desired mentality.

I guess I spent these whole three days in school worrying. My NAPHA test, History test, flocking speech day, homework, O levels, The-Saturday-Situation etc. Too much worrying I guess. I got very troubled and stuff... Remembered what Josh said about emotional probs and tried to get out of it.

Being emo feels good, I agree. However, it does not (and will not) benefit you in any way. SO WHY EMO? Live life to the fullest. Enjoy God's blessings!

"God, I want to seek you. God I want to seek you..." that's the most common phrase I said through the last three days.

BGR, BGR, BGR

Even when I don't want to think about it, it's all around me.

Yes, God. I know that You would reveal the person to me. The one whom You deemed in Your plan to be my counterpart... YET... WHY MUST I WAIT SO LONG, GOD?

(I am not emo now, as I already said...)

Every time I happen to glance at her, I would have an increased heartbeat. We have small conversations here and there. (I think I'm at a 2) Not sure if she's the one God wants for me... although I really want to know. xP

Anyway, I know it sounds childish and stuff, but... yeah. Her smile... it will just sweep me off my feet or something. She's just... WOWZERS (quoted from the late Steve Irwin)... From my perspective, she's really nice, rather outgoing... and very wise too =P

I know I cannot be thinking about this kind of stuff... but wow really enjoy these thoughts.

I guess the only thing to do from here is to bring this before God and seek Him and His direction. (NO NOT CONTINUE ON LAH!)

zzz i go nap first... tired